Hakuna Matata

I foreshadowed to me being an emotional wreck this week, and it has rang true.  Honestly, I've cried every day about something.  I've cried because I don't want student teaching to end, in a way.  I'm going to miss these kids like it's nobody's business!  I've cried because I want to go home.  Don't get me wrong, I love living with the Abrahamson's and appreciate all they've done for me, but I'm ready to live with my own mom and dad, play with my dog and wander around back behind again.

This week was interesting and I have felt like I've been all over the place!  I haven't been teaching and so after weeks of that, I just hardly knew what to do with myself.  I have been observing in other schools and classrooms, so I hardly knew what my kids have been doing.  I also had an afternoon where I went back to the school where I had an interview.  I'm also ended this week on Thursday instead of Friday.

On Tuesday, I went to the high school to observe.  One of the students had a soundtrack for The Lion King.  Naturally, I was singing along with him!  Then Hakuna Matata came on.  That song is true in the sense that we shouldn't worry, but in the bigger sense that we shouldn't worry because God has things taken care of and we need to trust in Him.  At this point, I was trying to make a decision about a job offer.

I was able to go to the high school where I was offered a position.  The building reminded me a little of my high school with the rich history of the building itself.  The principal gave me more of a tour and then he left me with the lady who I would be replacing.  It was so good to talk to her and get a sense of her job and the role they were asking me to fill.  After a long talk with her and a sinking feeling that this was not what I wanted, she took me to the SCI room.  My mood totally changed and I was happy in that room.  My heart is in SCI.  I knew then that I could not take this job.  I did ask for a little more time to think and pray before giving a final decision.

As I was on my way out, the lady I had been with for the past half hour came back to me.  She grabbed my hand and said, "I noticed you had the word 'pray' on your bracelet.  That's all you need to do right now.  He has the answer."  WOW!  Seriously!?  How incredible is that?!  As I left fighting tears, I couldn't wait to get to my car to really cry and pray.  As I went to Dustin's house, I continued to cry and pray and realized that I would have to turn down the position.

After praying, I felt more at peace about my decision and was able to talk to Whit, Dustin, and my parents about my decision.  After continued prayer, I feel more renewed in the job search.  And in the wise words of my friend Alison, "Well at least you know that there are people out there that will hire you." 

So now, I'm back to filling out applications and sending out resumes.  And all the while, I'm praying and saying, "Hakuna Matata," because, after all, it means no worries.