Stop

"Do I have 22 kids?"

"I still have _____ minutes left.  What am I going to have them do?"

"What are they doing!?"

"Where did _______ go?"

This week has been my second full week being in charge.  What a week it has been!  The kids have been testing me.  The end of last week was AWFUL as far as behavior goes.  The start of this week was interesting, but it has been getting a lot better.  I love all 22 of those kids, but some of them can be MEAN!  One of the boys had one of the sweetest girls in tears one day.  

And then they have those absolutely adorable, why can't you be like this all the time, moments.  Those moments where one comes up to hug you after a small group lesson.  Those moments where they're talking to each other and saying that I'm an awesome teacher.  Those moments where they want me to sit by them at lunch.  Those moments where they come in all excited in the morning to tell me a story.  Those moments where they really get something I was teaching them.  Those moments where they are fascinated with some ridiculous story I share about a random moment in my life.  Those moments where they say something so ridiculous or unexpected that I just can't help but laugh with them.

Today was a little crazy, but not as crazy as the previous days had been.  Which that in itself is something just short of a miracle since all week they were set on no school on Friday due to the impending snow storm.  I honestly don't think I heard more than 3 kids talking about it all day.  They listened really well.  They transitioned quickly.  They did pretty good on their math test.  

They still had me on my toes all day long.  I felt like I was running around all day.  I was even in a hurry to get home because of the storm.  My body was busy all day long.  My hands were always doing something.  My eyes were always looking at something.  I got home and I didn't want to do anything.  I stood and looked out my window at the falling snow.  I just stood there, completely motionless.

I finally stopped.

I finally stopped talking, looking around, moving, correcting, teaching, driving, walking.  

I just stood motionless.  And boy, did it feel good.  Just to stand there and marvel in the falling snow.  Just to marvel in the Creator who sends that snow to Earth.  Just to be.